The Tarot of Eli, LLC-Minor Arcana: Thoth- 9 of Swords-Cruelty & Gothic Tarot-IX of Swords

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The Thoth 9 of Swords-Cruelty, presents a ghastly image of 9 crooked, chipped swords, dripping blood. If this isn't gloomy enough, we have the celestial rule of Mars in Gemini, representing a primal raging hunger that has no restraint. If you are feeling "out of sorts" this is not a card you wish to look at, as the colors are perfectly nauseating. Here is a mind in its lowest state of self -abusive thought.

9 is a number of completion, and is also the number of the Sephira Yesod-Foundation, on the Tree of Life. Yesod is on the middle pillar of the Tree of Life, and has rectified the imbalances of the past energy disorders of Air. This, however, does not rectify the degeneration of the energy as it continues down the Tree. In this position, all-action Mars can't stay balanced in the house of all-talk Gemini.

Swords, usually depict the pure intellect that acts like air as its energy in motion continually heats up with passion and cools down with rationale. In the case of the 9 of Swords, consciousness has fallen into an unenlightened void of rational thought, stirring heartless animal passions; passions that are of the psychopath and the fanatic. This is the character of the inquisitor; it seems intellectual but is operating in a rage that is without restraint. All this sounds just awful and terribly gloomy, yet, it is the cultural foundation of "Divide and conquer" indoctrination technique that society has become so used to that we are dividing our subconscious, consciousness and unconsciousness, making each counter productive to the other, when all are really One Consciousness, of 3 aspects; one Psyche.

Our consumerism society is based on "fanning the flames" of that primitive raging hunger of survival thinking in order to produce the "fanatical shopper “whose world is always lacking self-fulfillment. Here the survival mind is an absolute servant of fear, while the Unconscious is dreaming of freedom from fear and the consciousness is trying to out run time. It is the realm of the Neti-Neti (Sanskrit for, “Not This-Not That") consciousness, that consumes unrelentingly, hoping for happiness in a future accumulation; a futile seeking of happiness because happiness isn't in accumulation nor resides in glutinous bellies, rather Happiness is a balance of inner and outer beauty and or a harmonious melody of the 3 aspects of Psyche. So if one insists on Neti-Neti, there is only one result in the completion of the greed of such hungry poisoness thought and that is the insanity of inner self cruelty where the slave master we are running from is in our own head.

Thankfully, many of us have enough strength in or character to know that happiness, is not a thing, but rather a "balance of Mind, body and soul" and have found out that by treating other people with respect, (do unto another as you would have done to you) rather than someone we have to conquer for our own sense of security, we have a happier presence on this earth. It is best to understand the truth of Self, for "everyone I see is another way to be me", is the truth of One Self we are all the "selves" of.

The 9 of Swords is the state of consciousness that is called "wanna-be", were one is not alive/happy until they achieve some future possession or goal. This person is a corpse, a zombie, who lives only in yesterday’s emotions and uncertain futures, leaving the moment of now vacant of their presence. This phenomenon of “walking corpse" is not a new thing that some Hollywood director dreamt- up as the latest horror thriller. Rather, you'll find this "living dead" concept in the two-thousand-year old Gnostic Gospel of Thomas that is part of the Nag Hammadi Library. In paragraph 56, of the Gospel of Thomas, it is written, "Whoever has come to understand the World has found only a corpse, and whoever has found a corpse is superior to the world”, if you can understand this Gnostic statement, you can understand the self-abuse of the 9 of Swords-Cruelty. Because the practice of "Self-inflicted cruelty" is going on in most human brains right now, most of us constantly belittle ourselves, in order to appease our dogma or indoctrination; i.e. our inner Pavlovian- slaver programing.

Again, the Thoth 9 of Swords, is called THE LORD OF DESPAIR AND CRUELTY, or Cruelty in short. This is Mars in Gemini; this is Yesod influencing Yetzirah in the Astral World. With a smattering of astrological data, one knows that the fiery energy of Mars, does little good in a sign of dualities.

This "little good" is shown by the nine rusty swords, dripping blood and poison on Crowley's card. One may shudder at the despair, meanings of illness, suffering and cruelty this card represents; But each of us, who are paying attention to our brain, often find this to be a "inner self cruelty" of our consciousness, as it cuts us with the emotionally poisoned blades of embarrassment, low-self-esteem, humiliation, self-condemnation, and/or inner or outer disgust. It is the internal Slave Master software that is installed in our Personality by our cultural indoctrination supervised by "The Few Who Rule the Many"". The very definition of ruler is one who controls definition; Ruler's make sure this Internal-Mental Slaver is installed before you even reach seven years old. Like rusty hooks of poisonous self-futility, this is a hard one to remove! Peer pressure, just drives this poison deeper into self-identity. Then the media, keeps slashing at your self-value...."you need this....you need that....to lack them, you are nothing!” Lack of self-worth Is at the very least implied, or blatantly rubbed in your face, daily, if not hour by hour. “Resistance is futile", blare the horns of the pusillanimous invertebrates who enforce "their masters will" on others. Faust never new such hell as this! With such a bombardment of self-delusion, one just wants to stop the world and get off!

There is an axiom in Buddhism that states, “Life is Suffering” … but only if you live in the lizard brain of survival thinking, fearing pain rather than enjoying presence. Life is indeed a mental/sensual experience, and we can be our own worst enemies, just by doubting our own value in the World. To see yourself as Lack, is the necessary software to continue the panicked consumerism that Muti -National mind programmers and/or definition peddlers- want! But think! Before any human judgment, you were already approved into being by your Higher Self/Solar Psyche. So once again, the Qabalistic axiom reads true, “Above all things, Know thyself"! It's simple really; you had to be approved by all that is Divine, to be made alive! Your presence is your Judgment....and obviously you are good enough for God/ The Divine Creative!

You are a Divine answer, to a Divine question, that began with I AM, what that I AM is, is what Creation is all about! Therefore, stop questioning your existence and become answers instead! Action is the Fiery Spirit that moves you, reaction is usually run by the uncertain animal who thinks the whole universe is out to eat it! "I Am" dares ask, "What am I"? And you are the answer to that question, "I AM ME"!

The 9 of Swords, cruelty, is about you being your own worst enemy, divided against yourself, mentally and emotionally. Always nay-saying before you can ever start a motion. This is “a moment of doubt" drawn out as a Life-time. Sure we doubt ourselves after all every new motion is a risk! But if the Child of Wonder, that innocent curiosity, still has "I's" in you, you're are going to "do it" anyway. We are always striving forward, we are being Pushed along by the Inner Spiritual Self, just like Dark Energy pushes the Universe of Matter forever outwards. Life is a Driving Force...and the Body is the vehicle driven from one transformation unto another!

So what this Cruel 9 of Swords implies, is that "a house divide must fall". Get together with yourself and over throw the Slaver program that is in your brain. Software can be erased even when it’s Garbage. (G.I.G.O). All software programs know of G.I.G.O., for when software is garbage and programed in, the hardware is operational garbage as well. Garbage in, Garbage out, i.e. G.I.G.O.!

The 9 of Swords implies that you must act rather than listen to constipated excuses and re think the programing! It's easy to fail, all you have to do is stop doing. Success, is a stubborn optimist, your Soul--- even if it kills "its self image" (destroys the body hardware) when trying to accomplish a goal, it just reincarnates and keeps at it! We all will pound out the bugs of our software (definitions), some sooner than others; but we all will do it eventually, that is the purpose of sensuality after all. For Life to continue in this Universe, the living must learn to discern by experiencing success and failure!

Now I am sure you are taught to believe that you have only one life, but that is a programed hogwash whose purpose is to keep you chasing time. Foolishly believing that you, a sensual learning conscious, can all learn all that is to be learned in one life time, keeps you from understanding the very nature of “Life Cycles” and /or Karma and how energy transforms. Relax and breathe deep. For if you die, the soul, will just "reabsorb" the software garbage in the personality/you that is now released, and try another revision of it in "Hardware" performance, that we know as "alive". Therefore, you are not rushed, and if you take only one step a day towards active self-knowledge, you still are journeying towards your destination.

So, "get over yourself and get on with you! Impeccability is what we do'' is a correctional software loop that I run in my self-doubting brain; it just overrides the "pity pot" of self-defeating thought every time it comes on line. But installing that software loop, took determination, and plain old fashion "jack Ass” stubbornness and constant repetition, a meditation of seconds, done most minutes, until it becomes automatic daily operation. Don't you think it’s time, we programed our own Hard Ware! That is the real message of the 9 of Swords.

ABOVE ALL THINGS, KNOW THYSELF!

Each of us has experienced the temptations to remain chained to the bedeviling thoughts of our subjugation; definitions of the few who wish to rule the many. The 9 of Swords, reminds us, that we are not preforming well mentally, when we are under the rule of self-belittlement. Again, you are obviously good enough to be the "image of the Divine Creative'", you are good enough for you! In our God-ness Goodness), resides the constant ability in each of us, to become More Self, rather than becoming less by seeking more stuff to hide self in.

The Gothic Tarot-9 of Swords is again depicting one sword and multiple feathers. Here we have 9 feathers clouding up the One Identity of the Sword or at least can perceive it as being so. Ever since childhood, you have been told to discard your Spirit as identity and accept you "station" in life; a station decided for you by "rulers" and/or some kind of "outer authority". Spirit comes from the Greek word Spiro, meaning "to breathe and/or breath". The authority to breathe comes from the inside, not the outside. You are born a Spirit with a body, you are not a body seeking spirit. Thinking that you are seeking "spirituality" is "upside down " thinking. You are the I AM (Spirit), seeking Self-Awareness through the intimate contact with creation that the body gives you. Wisdom comes only from experiencing in a first hand, sensual way. Hence, I AM Spirit, seeking Wisdom through being!

When the9 of Swords is thrown during a reading, the Querent will be or has been experiencing:

• Illness, malice, cruelty, pain, despair and suffering, in a period of nine days, or nine weeks or from self-cruelty thought processes in the past when nine years old.
• There is burden, want, oppression, as well as, subtlety and craft.
• There is also lying to oneself or others because of and "inferiority complex".
• All of this dysfunctional thought is basically from "self-belittlement", that is often so subtle that we don't even acknowledge it in ourselves. But the program is clever, as you will notice whenever you try to mentally or physically, step out of "comfort zones", you will be challenged with worry and seemingly rational explanations on why you should not take that step.  
• Fear as a guide to maturity.

If ill defined by the surrounding cards:

• Shame.
• Guilt.
• Terror.
• Infamy.
• Misery.
• Hate.

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