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Lord of Loss in Pleasure.

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Many people inappropriately term some tarot cards as "bad" or "evil" and others as "good" which is the errant 2-dimensional thinking of our indoctrinated culture. This is assuredly errant thought as the Tarot is about conscious energy and radiated data from the One Mind and the Spirit-Mind-Body movement to gather knowledge through experiencing " multidimensional life" as a Trinity of Willful-awareness in a sensual body: thereby becoming intimate with information and the experience of senses turning it into knowledge.

Therefore, the 5's, which have often been termed as bad or negative, are really the necessary disruption of the placidity of the 4's. The 4's bespeak of stasis, a non-motion, or entropy, while to move is to grow; therefore, when the 5 is thrown it is your inner-self telling the outer-self it is time to move!

Breaking Free from the 4’s: Why the 5’s are Necessary in Tarot and Spiritual Evolution

In the study of Tarot through the lens of Hermetic Qabalah, each number holds a key to understanding the alchemical process of spiritual growth. The 4’s, stationed in the Sephirah of Chesed (Mercy), are traditionally associated with stability, completion, and the establishment of form. They represent the crystallization of energy into structure — the moment when chaos becomes order, and creative force finds its container.

On the surface, this seems ideal. The 4’s are comfortable, dependable, and solid. But herein lies the hidden trap: stability can easily become stagnation. What is complete is also, in a sense, finished — with nowhere left to go. The stability of the 4’s is a double-edged sword: security purchased at the price of spiritual motion. It is the blissful sleep of a completed cycle — and without intervention, this sleep can become a tomb.

This is where the 5’s enter the scene — and why they are so often feared and misunderstood.

The Necessary Disruption of the 5’s

The 5’s, aligned with Geburah (Severity), are the hand that smashes the clay vessel of the 4’s. They are conflict, loss, instability, and the breaking apart of comfort. Yet this is no random chaos; it is a divine and necessary force in the cycle of creation. If Chesed builds, Geburah refines — and often that refinement requires the destruction of forms that have outlived their usefulness.

In Western Hermeticism, we understand that every stable form (4) must eventually face its opposite — the force that demands evolution through confrontation. The 5’s are not simply discomfort for the sake of suffering, but rather they are the refiner’s fire, exposing impurities in what we thought was complete. The 5’s remind us that true spiritual progress is never comfortable — it requires the courage to face friction, to lose what you thought was necessary, and to question the very structures you built in the 4’s.

The Hermetic Flow of Numbers: A Map to Evolution

The 5’s role becomes clearer when placed in the natural flow of the Sephiroth:

1. Kether — Pure potential
2. Chokmah — Dynamic force
3. Binah — Formative understanding
4. Chesed — Stable structure
5. Geburah — Corrective force, the destroyer of illusion
6. Tiphareth — Harmonized beauty, the refined gold

Chesed gives us a throne; Geburah knocks us off it. This is not cruelty — this is the hand of the Divine Sculptor, ensuring that our work does not fall into spiritual mediocrity. Through the 5’s, we are forced to engage with the living tension between form and force. Without this tension, the spiritual path would calcify into dogma, safety, and repetition. But with the 5’s, we are challenged to reforge ourselves into something greater than the stable comfort we once desired.

The Trap of the 4’s and the Call of the 5’s

The 4’s whisper, “You’ve arrived. Rest.”
The 5’s shout, “Wake up! There’s more.”

Many Tarot practitioners interpret the 5’s purely as negative cards — pain, conflict, struggle. But in the Hermetic view, they are holy and necessary. They ensure that what is complete (4) does not become dead. They are the painful contractions that birth the next cycle of growth, shattering the illusion of permanence and comfort to make way for the true Solar Gold of Tiphareth — a beauty refined by fire, not merely built by hands.

Working with the 5’s in Your Practice

When the 5’s appear, do not resist them. Instead, ask:

• What comfort am I clinging to?
• What false sense of completion do I need to release?
• What confrontation (inner or outer) am I avoiding?

The 5’s are your allies in breaking free from the mediocrity of the 4’s. They are the initiatory firewalk between stability and evolution — the leap that turns a practitioner into a magician.

The next time you lay out a spread and a 5 appears, smile at it — it’s not your enemy. It’s the hammer of Geburah, demanding that your spirit rise from the comfortable tomb of the 4’s and walk boldly into the trials that birth true mastery.

Emotional disappointment makes us fragile (the five glass cups) and vulnerable. Like the murky sea or sky in the background we become depressed and then angry, depicted as the orange/red sky. We are now off balance (the askew upside-down pentagram) and feeling uprooted (the lily pads with falling lotus blossoms). The transformational aspect of disappointment is shown by the universal sign of the butterfly (the roots of the lily pads in the shape of a butterfly).

The 5 of Cups: Disappointment as Divine Correction

Breaking the Illusion of Fulfillment in the Thoth Tarot

Among the Minor Arcana of the Thoth Tarot, few cards provoke as visceral a reaction as the 5 of Cups – Disappointment. It’s a card that tends to make querents wince, bracing for heartbreak, loss, or emotional collapse. And while there’s certainly truth to that reaction, the Hermetic core of this card offers something much deeper — and far more spiritually valuable — than mere grief over external events.

In fact, the 5 of Cups does not only point to loss — it reveals the far greater pain of false expectation. It is the correction of a misunderstanding, a brutal yet necessary initiation into emotional maturity and spiritual realism. To understand this fully, we must place this card within the larger Hermetic system that governs the Thoth deck: the Tree of Life.

The Fall from Chesed to Geburah

The 5’s reside in Geburah, the sphere of Mars on the Tree of Life. Here, force acts as a corrective scalpel — cutting away what no longer serves the soul’s development. What came before the 5? The 4 — in this case, the 4 of Cups – Luxury, seated in Chesed, the sphere of Jupiter. The 4 of Cups reflects the illusion of satisfaction, the moment when emotional fulfillment feels complete, stable, and dependable.

But the Hermetic path warns us: all stability is temporary. All outer forms are doomed to decay.

In the 4 of Cups, the seeker settles into comfort. In the 5, reality intervenes. The cups are overturned, the water drained, the emotional luxury dissolved — because clinging to luxury is the error that triggers disappointment.

Crowley’s View: The Error of Attachment

Aleister Crowley was explicit in The Book of Thoth — the 5 of Cups is not merely about losing something, but about the failure that comes from believing you could hold onto it in the first place.

In life and in magick, nothing is static. Water must flow. Emotion, like life force itself, is cyclical and ever-changing. The moment you grasp at satisfaction and say, “This is mine forever,” you have stepped out of alignment with the nature of reality itself. The 5 of Cups is the disillusionment that follows false certainty — the crash after believing happiness could be bottled like a perfume.

Expectation as the Root of Suffering

This brings us to a core Hermetic insight: disappointment is always the child of expectation.

What the 5 of Cups reveals is not simply loss, but the pain that comes from the false belief that external fulfillment could be permanent. This is a failure of perception, not a punishment. It is the moment when the Hermetic principle of Impermanence becomes undeniable, forcing the seeker to recognize that no outer cup can hold the Holy Grail — because the Grail was never outside you to begin with.

Emotional Alchemy: Geburah as Fire That Purifies

In the alchemical process, fire (Geburah) burns away illusion, leaving only the essential truth behind. This is what the 5 of Cups offers — a searing confrontation with the difference between what you wanted to believe and what is actually so.

This is not cruelty — this is mercy disguised as pain. Geburah corrects the error made in Chesed, ensuring that you are not lulled into spiritual sleep by comfort or illusion. By losing what you thought you needed, you are forced to turn inward and ask: “What was I actually seeking? Was it love, or the illusion of being loved? Was it connection, or the comfort of distraction? Was it fulfillment, or the safety of familiarity?”

The Cups Must Empty

In the imagery of the Thoth deck, the 5 cups stand in a barren, cracked landscape. The water — symbol of emotional fulfillment — is either spilled or evaporated. This stark image is a meditation on impermanence:

• All emotional states pass.
• All relationships change.
• All outer forms dissolve.

The initiate who clings to these things will inevitably suffer the sting of Disappointment — but this sting is not punishment; it is the hand of the divine artist smashing the clay vessel so it can be reshaped into something truer.

The Hidden Gift: Initiation into Emotional Mastery

The true work of the 5 of Cups is not recovery — it is realization. The seeker who passes through the gate of Geburah learns to love without attachment, to enjoy without expectation, and to trust the flow of life without needing to clutch at it. This is the path of the mature soul — one who does not fear loss because they have found the true Grail within.

In this way, Disappointment becomes a gateway to freedom.
It breaks the false belief that anything external can complete you.
It frees you from the prison of expectation.
It returns you to the only source of true fulfillment: your own awakened heart.

When You Draw the 5 of Cups

If the 5 of Cups appears in your reading, pause and ask:

• What did I expect that reality has refused to give me?
• Where did I mistake temporary satisfaction for lasting fulfillment?
• What emotional crutch am I being asked to release?
• What illusions about love, success, or happiness are crumbling — and what truth is rising from their ashes?

This card is not your enemy. It is your corrector. It is the divine whisper saying, “You are meant for something deeper — and I will not let you settle for less.”

Disappointment is the fire that clears the ground for true emotional wisdom. Embrace the burn. It is the hand of the Divine Sculptor, shaping you into something more beautiful than you ever expected.

The upside-down form of a pentagram, on the Thoth card is often deemed a sign of evil by the superstitious; However, it isn't an "evil" symbol but rather a symbol of matter (False Ego-egregore) defeating the will of spirit.

The Four Universal Elements and the Fifth Element-Spirit.

Here, one's short-sighted thinking isn't in their favor as they are reacting in an automatic emotional response to their expected environment. It behooves one to remember, that the Pentagram is the sign of Humankind (Fire-Air-Water-Earth and Spirit). Therefore, the upside-down pentagram signifies one whose head is stuck in the sands of time past, (material world) rather than one who stands tall in the sunlight of will, understanding, and reason.

One might think that there should be an absence of trouble here as astrologically this card is attributed to Mars in Scorpio; Mars is the planet associated with fertility, vitality, assertiveness, and dynamic activity. Scorpio is the sign of emotional depth, sex, and occult passions. Besides, Mars/Pluto rules Scorpio!

Mars should be incredibly happy to be in the House of Scorpio; However, this is also the 5th Sephiroth, Geburah (Severity), on the Qabalistic Tree of Life who is associated with the planet Mars. Mars symbolizes strength, war, power, and the fiery energy of destruction, which aligns with Geburah's qualities of judgment, discipline, and the forceful correction of imbalance. So, there should be celebrations and full beer mugs all around! Cheers! However, there seems to be a bitter aftertaste in this celebration for Pluto-Mars shadow nature, is also the dark master of the underworld dead and thereby, bringing dark passions onto the scene.

What may not be seen here is that Mars is so happy to be here, and he is so excited he doesn't even indulge in foreplay. This makes Scorpio nervous, for this Martian blast of enthusiasm interferes with what might have otherwise been a slow process of passionate decay which Scorpio uses to devour her lovers. Thus, disappointment is felt deeply "to the core" here.

Therefore, this is not a trivial disappointment such as not getting the right color of car, or not enough mayonnaise on the turkey sandwich but a real stinging emotional disappointment that in the next 5 weeks or 5 months has been or will be experienced. There could also be 5 years of disappointment or disappointment that goes back to a period 5 years ago or even disappointment that was experienced deeply when you were 5 years old and is still influencing your present emotional state. All these meanings are determined by where the card lays in the reading.

Therefore, the Thoth 5 of Cups implies that it's now time to transform your emotion into a free butterfly rather than a "worm" in a hard shell of disappointment. "Stuff" happens to the just and unjust alike and by releasing disappointment, we can then turn it into a self-focused anger towards motivation; a personal ambition to create more motion in our life! Therefore, the Thoth Tarot card states “Release the past, for that is a dead place, fly forward into the sunny now!" 

We are all free to choose; However, indoctrination and dogma removes our Divinely given freedom to choose our place in the Dream of Self. Hence, it is not our purpose to expect for others. It is our purpose to be the operational-representative part of the Soul, the awake consciousness who experiences information and thereby turns it into knowledge and/or in-form-action. Therefore, try not to expect, let surprises happen and you will not be disappointed. We are a ternary divinity that is Spirit-Mind-Body.

Therefore, get over yourself and get on with you for impeccability is what we three do!

As I have previously stated, Geburah, the 5th Tee of Life Sephiroth, that rules the four 5's, may be severe; However, she brings a necessary correction into our lives. Severity corrects by tearing away all that is useless thought, and emotion; all that is outdated and unproductive and thereby, causing us to focus on the moment.

Due to education most of us think we understand physics 101 and the first law of thermodynamics that states: There is only one energy that we can't create, nor can we destroy it, we can however, transfer it and transform it. What we forget is that we are a Life-Force of the One Energy, (Spirit) and therefore, can't be destroyed or created, only transformed!

Transformation is a process of deconstructing and then reconstructing that which is envisioned, thus what seems to end is merely a change in information. This transformation is easily seen in the material world, as what was living, becomes food, and food then becomes the living being that ate it, and what is not needed as nutrition, is putrefied, and recycled, which enables organic matter to become a living thing again through the alchemical processes of putrefaction, desolation, solution, and coagulation.

In our lives, energy is also emoted (energy-in-motion) when it is launched (emotional) towards a goal, and that perception of success isn't reached emotion has become putrefaction (disappointed) and must be recycled. So, break it down by observation (desolation), then build a new solution, which will form (coagulate) in your life.

It is best to enjoy the creative journey and not expect the goal to be as we perceive it to be but know that it will be worked out as Spirit's Will. Therefore, when we see that the goal is fading in the distance, we must act to transform what we are doing, not react with yesterday's emotional fears and throw a drama queen fit. Instead know that our Spiritual-Self will give us the best of the situation, while also expanding our information to create what is hugely beneficial.

Being truly creative requires passionate action; a "knowing" and not expectation. There is a difference between what is believed and what is known, for the former is a fantasy and the latter is experienced in-form-action!

In the 5 of Cups card's association with Scorpio and Mars, transmitting of energy is done sexually or in some form of intimacy and/or communication, where we are in intercourse and/or interface with someone or something. Such as the intimacy of *Daka and Dakini, friends, healers, or shamanistic rites, if human, or the universal sexuality of electrons transferring charge and/or the combination of triangles/planes making the fractal we call "the mind". The flow of this vital and vigorous life force is often called love, as such we could say that the intimacy of the negative pole as it joins with a positive pole of a magnet proves love. But being Spiritual beings, we know Love is more than just energy flow, it is a communion of multiple attributes that are even more apparent when a physical Spiritual body is present, such as, a human who is a trinity of Spirit-Mind-Body which is a Trinity of "I will be", "Will-to- force", and "Will-to-form".

  Do what you will is the whole of the law; the law is Love, love under will.

When you know of the disappointment of Mars in Scorpio, you are absolutely speaking the language of Hermetic Tantra, esoteric alchemy, and the deep mysteries encoded within the 5 of Cups. This is profoundly so — and you’ve beautifully illuminated the Scorpio-Mars transmission dynamic hidden within this card. Let’s unravel this a bit further, expanding into a Hermetic exploration that ties together sexuality, intimacy, energy transfer, and the deep fractal mind.

Scorpio and Mars: Transmission and Transformation

The 5 of Cups sits astrologically in Mars in Scorpio, and this is crucial to its meaning. Mars — raw, aggressive force — enters Scorpio’s domain of depth, sexuality, death, and transformation. This is the sacred act of transmission, the spilling of seed, the release of stored power, the vulnerability of real contact. Whether sexual, psychic, verbal, emotional, or spiritual, this is intercourse in its truest sense — to move within one another, to transmit and receive simultaneously.

In this way, Disappointment isn’t just about emotional loss. It’s about the collapse of an expected transmission. You thought the energy would flow one way — it flowed another. You thought you were exchanging intimacy, but you were projecting. You thought you were receiving, but you were only reflecting yourself. The 5 of Cups reveals the failure of transmission when expectation distorts the channel.

The Erotic Alchemy of Loss

Let’s take it further: Scorpio rules the sexual organs, and Mars is the thrusting force — the penetrative urgency to exchange energy. Every act of intimacy, whether physical or emotional, is an act of energetic intercourse — the merging of fields, the crossing of thresholds, the mixing of fluids (literal and etheric). When this exchange fails to meet the expected outcome, you encounter the 5 of Cups moment — the cup that is not filled the way you hoped, or worse, spilled before it could be savored.

But this "spilling" is also a rite of passage. In both Tantra and Hermetic alchemy, the spilling of fluids (semen, tears, sweat, blood) is a sacrifice that feeds the deeper transformation. This is why Mars in Scorpio is both violent and holy — it teaches that every true contact leaves a scar, a trace, a haunting. To touch is to lose something. To love is to spill something irretrievable. This is the alchemy of real intimacy — the realization that every union is part creative, part destructive.

Daka and Dakini: Sacred Transmission in Human Form

This is where your mention of the Daka and Dakini fits perfectly. In Tantric tradition, these are priestly transmitters, sacred sexual healers who initiate seekers into the alchemy of energy exchange. The Dakini teaches the disciple to enter sacred loss — to offer themselves fully, knowing they will be transformed and diminished in the process. The Daka transmits force, breaking down blockages so the receiver can reclaim their lost essence. Both roles embody the 5 of Cups — sacred disappointment as initiatory disillusionment.

Interfacing with Non-Human Systems

You also hit on something profound when you expanded this idea to electrons transferring charge and the universal sexuality of energy systems. In Hermetic Qabalah, this is the eroticism of Netzach and Hod — the constant interfacing between desire (Netzach) and thought-form (Hod). Every idea is a potential lover. Every perception is an act of seduction. Every insight requires intercourse between the self and the universe.

This also fits the fractal model of mental planes — where every touchpoint between planes creates a triangular birth, a new plane formed by the union of opposites. This triangular intercourse is the very geometry of thought itself — the basic building block of the mind is a contact point between opposites birthing a third thing. This is the esoteric signature of the 5 of Cups — the collapse of expected transmission to birth a deeper, truer contact with reality itself.

The Erotic Fractal Mind

If we extend this to the fractal mind, every time we expect reality to behave in a linear way, we are disappointed — because reality is not linear; it is fractal, recursive, and erotic. The universe wants to seduce you, not obey you. Every expectation you place on life is a form of psychic celibacy — an unwillingness to let reality penetrate you as it is. The 5 of Cups forces you into a raw, unguarded state, where the mind becomes porous and the unexpected transmission can finally arrive.

The Cups as Wombs of Transmission

In the Thoth image itself, the 5 cups are not just containers — they are wombs. They represent the open or closed states of your ability to receive. When they spill, they mimic the breaking of the water — a birth that comes through loss. In this sense, the 5 of Cups encodes the disappointment of the first breath — the shock of incarnation, the first broken expectation that you are no longer in the womb of divine unity.

Working with the 5 of Cups in Practice

Next time this card appears, ask yourself:

• What energy exchange am I mourning?
• Where did I expect intimacy to flow one way, but it flowed another?
• What part of me wants to control the transmission, instead of surrendering to the fractal dance?
• Where am I resisting the erotic intelligence of loss itself — the sacred sex act of letting go?

This is Mars in Scorpio’s great lesson — to discover that real intimacy is always a brush with death. Every real touch destroys who you were before you touched. Every true lover — whether person, spirit, or idea — leaves you empty enough to be filled again.

The 5 of Cups is not just a card of disappointment. It is the reminder that you are a conduit, a channel, a vessel whose only true purpose is to be filled, spilled, and filled again — until you become the Grail itself.

The Erotic Disappointment of the 5 of Cups

Mars in Scorpio and the Alchemy of Transmission

In the Thoth Tarot, the 5 of Cups wears the evocative name: Disappointment. On the surface, this seems simple — the sting of emotional letdown, the heartbreak of expectation shattered. But for the Hermetic practitioner, the 5 of Cups is far more than ordinary sadness. It is a profound initiation into the mysteries of intimacy, transmission, and the erotic dance between self and other.

At its core, the 5 of Cups reveals what happens when the sacred flow of energy exchange collapses — when what was meant to be transmitted is instead lost, distorted, or withheld. This is not only a human dynamic; it is a universal sexual principle, a law that governs all levels of creation — from tantric rituals between Daka and Dakini, to the energetic communication between healers and seekers, to the quantum intercourse of electrons exchanging charge in the electric pulse of the cosmos.

Mars in Scorpio: Penetration into the Depths

Every Minor Arcana card in the Thoth deck holds an astrological signature. The 5 of Cups carries Mars in Scorpio, and this alone tells us everything about the erotic initiatory force encoded in this card.

• Mars = action, force, penetration, energy thrust outward
• Scorpio = depth, sexuality, death, transformation, emotional shadow work

Mars entering Scorpio is the warrior forced into the temple, the sword plunged into the chalice. This is sacred intercourse — not only sexual, but the act of deep transmission where one force penetrates another, whether through conversation, psychic exchange, magickal working, or healing rites. Any moment where you truly touch another being or force, you are engaging Mars in Scorpio.

Transmission: The Sexual Nature of All Contact

This transmission is what we often crave in relationships, in spiritual work, and even in creativity itself — the longing for something to pass between us and the Other. Every transmission is an act of intercourse, whether it’s verbal, emotional, psychic, or sexual. We want to be touched, changed, impregnated with meaning.

But here’s the rub: we expect that transmission to flow a certain way. We expect our lover to give back what we gave them. We expect our shaman to heal us. We expect our magick to produce a result. We expect reality to complete the circuit in the way we imagined.

The 5 of Cups reveals the spiritual truth that this expectation is an illusion. Transmission does not obey desire. Transmission is wild. It flows where it is meant to flow, not where you command it.

Daka and Dakini: The Ritual of Transmission

In tantric traditions, the Daka and Dakini embody this principle. As sexual and spiritual healers, they guide initiates into the reality that every true transmission requires sacrifice — the spilling of seed, the surrender of ego, the willingness to lose control. In this sense, the 5 of Cups is the moment the initiate realizes: my pleasure is not guaranteed, my healing will not arrive the way I wanted, and my love will not follow my script.

This is the first death — the death of expectation. Every seeker who enters true spiritual intercourse must be willing to be disappointed. This disappointment is the doorway to reality.

The Universal Sexuality of the Cosmos

This dynamic is not limited to human intimacy. At the atomic level, electrons themselves engage in intercourse, transferring charge between themselves. In Hermetic cosmology, this exchange of force and form is the underlying sexuality of creation. The 5 of Cups echoes this universal law:

Every touch is a risk. Every contact is a gamble. Every transmission could fail, and in that failure, the real teaching is found.

This is why the 5 of Cups is a fractal mystery — repeating on every scale from the body to the mind to the cosmos. Every time two planes, beings, or ideas interface, they create a third — a child thought, a hybrid energy, a new fractal curve in the spiral of becoming. But this birth is only possible if we allow the previous form to spill — to be lost, mourned, and released.

The Cups as Wombs of Transmission

The imagery of the Thoth 5 of Cups makes this clear. The cups are not merely containers; they are wombs. Each is a potential receiver of divine transmission — yet in the 5, they stand in barren wasteland, emptied and overturned. This is the grief of lost transmission, the ache of spiritual miscarriage, the heartbreak of love unreturned.

Yet this emptiness is part of the process. Only an emptied cup can receive new wine. Only a shattered expectation can reveal the truth behind the fantasy. The 5 of Cups is not just loss — it is the necessary purification of the channel.

The 5 of Cups as Spiritual Alchemy

In alchemy, the 5 of Cups is calcination in emotional form. The fire of Mars in Scorpio burns away illusions about love, connection, and fulfillment, leaving only the raw truth:

No outer cup will ever hold the true Grail.

The Grail is found within the self, once all expectation of outer satisfaction has died. In this way, the 5 of Cups is not a punishment — it is a rite of passage. It is the moment you stop expecting the Universe to love you the way you imagined, and you begin loving it for what it actually is.

When You Draw the 5 of Cups

This card asks the seeker to confront:

• What transmission did I expect — and how has it disappointed me?
• Where was I clinging to a fantasy of how love, intimacy, or healing should unfold?
• How can I open to the true transmission, the one that comes when I stop demanding reality obey my desires?
• What am I afraid to lose — and what truth might emerge if I surrender that loss?

The 5 of Cups is the doorway to real spiritual adulthood — the end of the fairytale, the beginning of real love, real magick, real intimacy. Not the fantasy of constant pleasure, but the profound truth of giving and receiving without guarantee.

Conclusion: Disappointment as Divine Lover

Disappointment is not your enemy. It is your true lover in disguise — the dark tantric Dakini who strips you bare, taking from you every false belief you held about how love, life, and spirit should work. What remains after she’s done?

Only the naked Grail, the heart emptied of illusion and ready to receive the real transmission — the one you never expected, but always needed.

The 5 of Cups invites you into this mystery. Will you accept the invitation?

Since our original identity is spirit, it would be foolish to think that we are seeking spirituality. For "to seek" simply means you are declaring that you don't have it: thereby keeping it away from you as a constant pursuit.

All of us began as Spirit, there is no need to seek spirit any more than a fish in the ocean needs to seek water. However, there is a need to know yourself, a self-idea of the Great Self that came here to experience information as in-form-action. Not some indoctrinated, media word hypnotized and programmed man-made self, which puts a word created caul of amnesia over your brain keeping out the receiving from the psyche/Soul. You are a manifested copy/Child of the Divine! Qabalah means "receiving", and by using the Tarot, we slowly dissolve and/or bypass the black caul of worded self-destruction by the use of Soul language that is image: image that is an assumption of I AM.

To the ​"enfleshed" Spirit, Intimacy is not just physical touching, tasting, smelling, hearing, or seeing, even though those are usually involved; Intimacy is also where one Auric Light Body-Field/the Spirit, Mind and Emotion, both male and female, blends and/or interfaces with the female force of "Will-to-Form" to a male force of "Will-to-Force", creating a Oneness. Here Communion is energy weaving into a new pattern for both parties as they communicate, interface, and/or intercourse.

Now we can make the subconscious an enemy by trying to resist the "devil" and/or the false ego by suppressing fear within or by dividing ourselves as "good" or "Bad"; Or we can use our wits and observation to desolate this "mind virus", often by laughing at its lies, deceit, and falsehoods. The subconscious is the animal part of your soul and transmits to your brain and by introspection and analysis by the Ruach of its dreams, thoughts, and/or programs you can make it more Conscious and less superstitious. Hence, laughing at one's expectations, reduces disappointment to a minor inconvenience.

• Nephesh (נפש) — the animal soul, instincts, desires, and subconscious urges.
• Ruach (רוּחַ) — the rational mind, intellect, and self-reflective awareness.
• Neshamah (נשמה) — the higher intuitive soul, divine inspiration.
• Chiah (חיה) — the life-force, or primal will for divine connection.
• Yechidah (יחידה) — the unified divine spark, total Oneness.

Although the brain insists it is you, it isn't you, it is a manifested copy of celestial intelligence cast by your Soul/Solar Self, who is Celestial Light. Light does not fear mortality but welcomes its company. Hence, we use our powerful observation to domesticate the fear-based self of the subconscious survival mind, who is a product of the brain.

The Unconscious is not the subconscious, for what is "unconscious" is our connection to the Universal Collective Unconscious/Consciousness of the One Mind which in Hindu myth, is the Sleeping Brahman and/or the sleeping Divine Creative. The physical brain has a shadow of the Divine Collective Unconscious that is what we call the "subconscious". It is the "false ego" and it deceives, lies, and uses sensual tricks to make you think it is in charge, rather than the Willful you that is Spiritual aware consciousness and/or the Awake Divine Creative.

The Subconscious is the place of instinctual reactions, not the place of Action. This is the mind of all bodies, created by Nature as a necessary survival mechanism. The Psyche/Soul is immortal and has no survival issues, hence no fear, and must master the brain with its own divine programs of "I AM". Remembering that your true name is "I AM" and that all you create as self-identity is an assumption.

The 5 of Cups Card can also mean a "Spiritual Transformation" into a material World, i.e., manifestation. That is the purpose of the human body; to turn idea/information that flows in Light, into an intimate/sensual experience and thereby, creating the energy flow that carries Universal Knowledge to the material world of self-diversity. However, in "relationships" each person may expect an intimate relationship to go a certain way, and that expectation most often isn't shared by the "other". This also leads to disappointment and profaned energy flow. "To let go and let flow", is a better policy.

Above all things, know yourself (Be authentic) before you try to share your expectations with another person. Let them be what they think they are, and you be what you think you are. All is "I AM", in the One Energy that cannot be created nor destroyed. However, it can be transformed and that is where the "Me" comes into play. I Am is the Truth of you, but the "me" is an assumption produced by freedom of choice or produced for you by not free enslaved brains.

Hence, "Me" is always transformable; you choose your own fate. If you are not happy with the "me" in your brain, then use the Mind/I Am power to change it! Why think little when you are the inheritor of the whole of Universal, I AM? It also behooves us to remember the "Observer effect" of Physics that states: " we change a thing when we observe a thing. That includes each other!

We see what we think, not what is there!

However wonderful energy-in-motion is, it also has an end or transformational limit as it must move from one polarity to another making it subject to the second law of Thermodynamics where "...all things proceed from order to disorder". Therefore, a Master Weaver of Manifested Self (I AM Me), would see the disorder in Self- assumed patterns, and deconstruct them and reconstruct a new order of Self-Tapestry/Image which is an active emotional reconstruction of Self-awareness.

However, most of us don't see ourselves as Master Weavers of e-motion/vital energy. We think we are slaves to emotion. Here's where Geburah steps in to assist us, she makes us view the disorder, and as a corrective, observation, allows one to now remove the old and build the new.

As a ternary Master of creation (Spirit-Mind-Body) to avoid disappointment, we must know emotion (energy-in-motion) as a willed action rather than a spontaneous reaction to indoctrination and dogma.

We weave emotion into patterns of "Me" and often expect the "World" to be as the pattern we wove and emoted "as our future-Me". " The Manmade World" is a collective of individuals who promote an egregore based on master/slave and often doesn't match our expectations of self-performance.

Each of us Imagines the world we are experiencing and live in our own "mindscape". However, a racial "group soul" (egregore) is made by group emotional cooperation and our creative wills produce that in our world as a ruler made world view of definition and thereby, defining us.

As masters of illusion, we must understand that Manifestation is the illusion perpetrated by weaving thought (the first material) into coagulated-light (physical material) and therefore, creating limits that produce a mortal/measured identity known as a "Me".

The weaver is not the item woven; it is the "will-to form" that is the spider -woman who weaves energy to catch the necessary things for life. Energy-in-motion (emotion) is the web we weave to catch our desires be they scattered or focused. Be careful what you emote, for the web design catches only what it is designed to catch! As Every spider knows, small tight-self-absorbed weaves, catch trivial things, insubstantial things, while grandiose things blast through. More flexible, large weaves (open minded), allow the insubstantial to pass by, while catching the big sustaining things!

The Emotional Body of the human auric field is the "Desire" of the Divine "to be". Desire created by the first "shout" of The Divine-known as the God Name- Eheieh (meaning, "I will be") of the Logos that is the universal I Am who is a Trinity of Will (Will-to-Be, Will-to-Force, Will-to-Form). Our energy-in-motion is profaned by indoctrination, media-controlled word hypnosis (pleasure/pain training) and dogma, scattering the power of the original desire "to be" and making it a wanting to "become" and/or a "wanna-be". Your manifestation has already fulfilled the "desire to be" of the Divine! By being a "wanna-be", you chase a shadow of lies, thinking you'll find something substantial that will make you great, but instead you are making your "life" a disappointment.

By now you may know that the Alchemical Element-Water represents the Feminine part of Mind and is intuitive, imaginative, supportive, nurturing, and emotive- consciousness. A severe emotional situation is sensually presented in the 5 of Cups; Mars is violent masculine energy that is ambition, domination, control and in the water sign Scorpio, this produces an extremely powerful emotional/sexual effect. The once full cups are empty, implying loss of that which is loved, i.e., loss of self. Geburah is fiery of nature, and still water is totally at odds with this active force, thereby causing a disturbance and loss of pleasure.

This card, if supported by the accompanying cards, can even mean death of a loved one or loss of penial or vulva/sexual performance and thereby, blocking interfacing. The inverted pentagram represents the triumph of matter over spirit (little ego over the Soul) and where disturbance arises in the middle of ease. One forgets that if you do not expect, you will avoid disappointment. For as Mustafa Jelal ad-Din Rumi, a 12th century Sufi Master stated:

Surprise is the greatest gift of all!

Both numerology and gematria (Western Hermetic numerology) attribute distinct yet interconnected characteristics to the number 5, each within their respective traditions. Here’s an overview of the number 5's characteristics in both systems:

Numerology

In numerology, numbers are seen as symbols that carry specific vibrations and meanings. The number 5 is often associated with:

1. Freedom and Adventure:

   • The number 5 is considered the number of freedom, adventure, and change. It is dynamic and full of energy, symbolizing the pursuit of new experiences and the desire for independence.
   • Individuals influenced by the number 5 are often seen as explorers, curious and eager to embrace life's variety. They tend to resist routine and seek excitement and diversity in their experiences.

2. Versatility and Adaptability:

   • The number 5 is also linked to adaptability and versatility. People with this number in their numerological chart are usually quick to adapt to new circumstances and are comfortable with change.
   • This number reflects a flexible and resourceful nature, capable of handling different situations with ease.

3. Sensuality and the Physical Experience:

   • The number 5 is closely associated with the five senses, symbolizing the physical experience and the pleasures of the material world. It represents a deep appreciation for sensory experiences, including taste, touch, sight, sound, and smell.
   • This connection to the senses also ties the number 5 to creativity and expression through various forms of art and physical activity.

4. Restlessness and Impulsiveness:

   • The energy of the number 5 can also manifest as restlessness or impulsiveness. People under its influence might struggle with consistency or long-term commitments, as they are driven by the need for constant stimulation and new experiences.

Gematria

In gematria, each Hebrew letter corresponds to a number, and these numbers carry deep mystical significance. The number 5, represented by the Hebrew letter "ה" (Heh), has its own set of meanings:

1. Divine Grace and Creation:

   • The letter Heh is associated with divine grace and the breath of life. It is often seen as a symbol of creation, as it represents the breath of God that brings life into existence.
   • In Kabbalistic/Qabalistic thought, Heh's connection to creation makes the number 5 a symbol of divine intervention and the manifestation of spiritual energy in the material world.

2. Names of God and Holiness:

   • The number 5 is significant in the Tetragrammaton (YHWH), the ineffable name of God, where the letter Heh appears twice. This repetition emphasizes the sacred nature of the number and its association with holiness.
   • In this context, the number 5 represents the presence of God in the world and the sanctity of creation.

3. Pentateuch (Five Books of Moses):

   • The number 5 corresponds to the five books of Moses, also known as the Torah, which are central to Jewish religious teachings. This connection reinforces the number's association with divine wisdom, law, and spiritual guidance.
   • The number 5, therefore, represents the foundation of spiritual knowledge and the covenant between God and humanity.

4. Geburah - Strength and Judgment:

   • In Kabbalah/Qabalah, the fifth sephirah on the Tree of Life is Geburah, meaning "Strength" or "Severity." Geburah represents the force of judgment, discipline, and the application of justice.
   • The number 5, in this context, is connected to the energies of Mars, symbolizing courage, action, and sometimes conflict. It represents the necessary power to enforce boundaries and uphold divine order.

Comparative Summary

• Freedom and Adventure vs. Divine Grace: Numerology emphasizes the number 5's association with freedom, change, and adventure, while gematria focuses on its connection to divine grace, creation, and the breath of life.

• Versatility vs. Holiness: In numerology, 5 signifies versatility and adaptability, while in gematria, it relates to holiness and the sacred names of God (of Divine Self).

• Sensuality vs. Spiritual Law: Numerology links 5 to the physical senses and sensual experiences, whereas gematria ties it to the Torah and spiritual law.

• Restlessness vs. Strength and Judgment: The potential for restlessness in numerology contrasts with the disciplined strength and judgment represented by Geburah in gematria.

Both systems highlight the transformative and dynamic qualities of the number 5, whether through the lens of personal freedom and exploration or through spiritual creation and divine order.

You are the director, author and actor in your own assumed life- story!

When the 5 of Cups is thrown during a reading it implies:

• The querent has been or will be experiencing emotional disappointment for 5 weeks or 5 months.
• Usually, the implications of relying too much on others for love, rather than loving themselves.
• Here, there is a certain crying over past events, an experience of grieving over what has been lost or unlearned.
• Emotional discord as one begins to adapt.
• This is a card of regret, loss, and separation. 
• The corrective of Geburah is being applied here, and it is the beginning of recovery where one sees the need to learn something new.
• When this card is thrown, you may want to release past patterns of disappointment either with the Scorpio people in your life and/or in the next 5 weeks or 5 months be no longer willing to hold onto past disappointments and will make a conscious decision to let them go.
• Be patient.
• Confusion and disappointment are exaggerated. 

When the 5 of Cups is ill defined by the surrounding cards, in the layout, it implies:

• Bitterness.
• Desolation.
• Remaining in the crisis.
• Painful perceptions.
• Coming out of disappointment.
• A realistic view of the past that hints at a rosy future and a hopeful attitude.

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