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Above all things, know thyself!

#5. I recognize the manifestation of undeviating justice in all the circumstances of my life.

Lord of Material Trouble.

Since Disks/Pentacles are cards that represent the physical world of manifestation this Thoth 5 of Disks card represents physical worry, concerns, and rumination. It is a state of consciousness that dwells in the past, or losing what they have and goes forward fearing the future as a repeat and therefore, one's consciousness is not focused in the now. By not living in the now, we are not present today, which doesn't allow new perspectives or thoughts to change our mental-emotional (Energy-in-Motion) direction. This is a general effect of a long strain without action, a general state of inaction. Health, finances, work, relationships and/or creativity are the concerns here. However, its primary meaning is Poverty.

This card represents the feeling that the earth has gone out from under your feet, troubles, losses, and bad luck have piled up like a snowball that turns into an avalanche.

To the knowing magus of this material world, the misuse of one's possessions or the misuse of energy-in-motion or power will easily lead to separation from others and the potential for losing it all.

The Knowing here, is that the true wealth is not of accumulated titles, or possessions; Rather what is to be gleaned from our manifesting here is that true wealth is the Spiritual abundance of Spirit-Mind-Soul, in perfect fearless cooperation as the Whole Self Harmonic. True Wealth is Will-Mind over matter/physical. We have inherited the All! What can be wealthier than that Star that you are?

Jesus said, "Let him who seeks continues seeking until he finds. When he finds he shall become troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he will rule over all."

-The Gospel of Thomas-2

"Every man and every woman is a star." – Liber AL vel Legis I:3

In this single line, Aleister Crowley presents a key to a cosmic mystery—one that opens the door to understanding the origin of the soul, the nature of the Self, and our place within the Great Work of the Universe. When we consider the Hermetic Qabalah alongside Thelemic doctrine, Jungian psychology, and esoteric mythologies of cosmic ancestry, we begin to uncover a staggering truth: each soul is a Solar Star, born of the hidden light of the Cosmos.

The Invisible Light of Kether: The Hidden Source

At the apex of the Tree of Life lies Kether, the Crown, the ineffable brilliance of the divine source. It is the "Primordial Point"—pure Being before Becoming. In The Book of Thoth, Crowley writes: "Kether is the goal, the summit of the Tree, the starting-point alike of manifestation and of the return to the unmanifest."

Kether is the light that cannot be seen—the purest radiation beyond the visible spectrum. Just as a physical star contains light that human eyes cannot perceive, so too does Kether radiate with the ineffable glory of the Ain Soph Aur, the Limitless Light. From this divine singularity, the soul descends through the Sephiroth, taking on form and individuality.

The Solar Self in Tiphareth: The Child of Light

As the divine spark descends into manifestation, it finds its most luminous reflection in Tiphareth, the Solar center of the Tree. Here, the Yechidah—the unique divine essence—takes on the cloak of a Self. It is in Tiphareth that the Higher Genius, the Holy Guardian Angel, and the Christos reside. This is the place of divine self-awareness.

Tiphareth is not merely a symbol of balance—it is the heart of the Soul, the center of radiance through which we remember our stellar origin. The Solar Self is the bridge between the invisible light of Kether and the tangible world of Malkuth.

Crowley often referred to the goal of initiation as union with this Solar consciousness. In Liber ABA, he states:

"The Adept must bring the Holy Guardian Angel into his consciousness as the Master of his own being."

The Angel is the Solar Star—the radiant intelligence guiding the soul back to its Source.

The Creatrix: Binah and the Cosmic Womb

Yet no star is born without a womb. In Hermetic Qabalah, that womb is Binah, the Supernal Mother, the Sea of Understanding. She is the collective unconscious in its highest form—the archetypal matrix from which all souls are formed. As Jung described the collective unconscious as a "reservoir of experience," so too does Binah serve as the cosmic memory of all forms and structures.

Binah is the Great Mother, the Creatrix, known also as the Shekhinah or the Supernal Isis. From Her chalice, the light of Chokmah is received and gestated into individualized souls. Thus, we are each born from a Star, but our soul is shaped by the Goddess.

The Engineered Body: Malkuth as the Temple of the Star

Mystical and mythological traditions speak of humanity as a being whose body was shaped by higher intelligences—whether angels, gods, or the Anunna of Mesopotamian myth. In this context, the human body is a vehicle—a genetic vessel designed to house the stellar Self.

In Hermetic Qabalah, Malkuth is the Kingdom, the Earth, the sacred temple in which the divine spark resides. Crowley alludes to this in 777, where he aligns Malkuth with the Four Elements—the very substance of the physical body.

We are not merely born of dust—we are star-dust incarnate. Our genetic clay has been shaped to hold a Solar Jewel.

Conclusion: The Return of the Star to the Source

The Great Work is not only the perfection of the self—it is the remembrance of the Self’s origin. To awaken the Solar Star within, to rise from Malkuth to Tiphareth, and ultimately to return the light to Kether, is to complete the circuit of divine incarnation.

You are not merely a human being—you are a cosmic soul, a Solar Self born of a Star, cloaked in matter, and guided by the Light of the Divine. The journey of your soul is nothing less than a stellar pilgrimage back to the Source.

Let your light shine—not in the false glare of ego, but in the radiant brilliance of awakened remembrance.

Sources & Citations:

• Aleister Crowley, Liber AL vel Legis (The Book of the Law)

• Aleister Crowley, The Book of Thoth

• Aleister Crowley, Magick in Theory and Practice (Liber ABA)

• Aleister Crowley, 777 and Other Qabalistic Writings

• C.G. Jung, The Archetypes and the Collective Unconscious

• Dion Fortune, The Mystical Qabalah

You aren't what you think you are; Above all things, know thyself!

Ritual of the Source Star: Awakening the Solar Seed-blog @

We are a Psyche/Solar Mind (Sun of Divine Creative) not a body nor its subconscious fear-based survival mind. Each of us has the power of command. I Am... begins this command process. I AM Wealth, commands the manifestation of Spiritual, Mental, and Body wealth. To concentrate on loss is to command loss as your manifestation. To seek is to deny you have it. To "Know" is a command to manifest. Hence, I Am Wealth, Health, and Wellbeing! I AM-Commands energy to become these things: I AM built you as Itself!

You are a Mind/Psyche that controls energy and emotes thought, the first material, into creation. This power of emoting is called "emotions". The more emotion you put into a command of I Am, the more the swirling power of emotions stirs the energy all around you into manifesting your command.

You already have fulfilled your destiny which is "to be" for that is the will of the One (I AM), known as Eheieh the Hebrew God name for Kether the 1st Sephiroth and means "I Will Be" and the beginning of the Universal Breath. However, now that your destiny has been decided, you control your fate, which is called "freedom of choice". Most of us are an I AM identity suffering from culturally imposed amnesia created by the Patriarchal- social egregore of divisionism. We have forgotten we are the Energy Mind over matter that is often called the Soul/Psyche and/or the Sun of God. We command our fate by what we send energy-in-motion to. I AM helps created our Identity. I AM, states existence, what I Am, is assumption by freedom of choice. I AM Wealth, yelled with the force of passion, cancels the manifesting the fantasy of enslaved poverty and/or worry.

Astrologically the Thoth 5 of Disks card represents Mercury in the House of Taurus, also symbolizing communication worries. Worrying about whether your communication efforts are coming across correctly or if you even can communicate at all. By now we are familiar with the 5th Sephiroth- Geburah, a state of energy intelligence that is severe in its function; Geburah, the 5th Sephiroth, is a corrective state of intelligence whose severity is an action towards self-assessment rather than anything karmic. The angels of the Decan are Mibahiah and Pooyal.

When Mercury, the planet of communication, intellect, and information processing, is positioned in the zodiac sign of Taurus and occupies a house within a birth chart, it influences the individual's thought processes, communication style, and learning preferences within the themes of Taurus, which include stability, material possessions, sensuality, and practicality. Here are the characteristics of Mercury in the house of Taurus:

1. Practical Thinking: Mercury in Taurus fosters a practical and down-to-earth approach to thinking and communication. Individuals may have a grounded mindset that focuses on tangible results and real-world applications.

2. Steady and Methodical Communication: Those with this placement tend to communicate in a deliberate, steady, and methodical manner. They may not be the quickest to respond, but when they do, their words carry weight and stability.

3. Value-Oriented Communication: Taurus is associated with values and possessions, so individuals with Mercury in Taurus often place importance on what they say and how it aligns with their values. They may prioritize honesty, integrity, and loyalty in their communication.

4. Resistant to Change: Taurus is a fixed sign known for its resistance to change, and when Mercury is placed here, there can be a reluctance to adapt to new ideas or ways of thinking. However, once they have formed an opinion or belief, they are likely to stick with it.

5. Sensual Expression: Taurus is ruled by Venus, the planet of love and sensuality, so Mercury in Taurus may express itself through a love of language that appeals to the senses. They may appreciate beautiful words, poetry, or art that evokes strong sensory experiences.

6. Slow to Make Decisions: Individuals with Mercury in Taurus may take their time when making decisions, preferring to thoroughly analyze all available information before coming to a conclusion. Once they have made up their mind, though, they are usually steadfast in their choice.

7. Emphasis on Material Matters: Taurus is associated with material possessions and financial security, so Mercury in Taurus may place emphasis on practical matters related to money, investments, and material wealth in their communication and thought processes.

8. Strong Memory for Detail: Taurus is a sign known for its attention to detail, and Mercury in Taurus individuals often have a strong memory for facts and figures, especially when it comes to practical or financial matters.

Overall, Mercury in Taurus brings a grounded, methodical, and value-driven approach to communication and thinking, emphasizing practicality, stability, and sensuality in its expression within the birth chart.

In the 5 of Disks, we have Geburah-Severity, influencing the Material World (Assiah).

"To Worry" something, is translated from Anglo- Saxon to English, as the Anglo-Saxon shepherds used the word "to worry sheep" which is a type of strangulation a sheep dog does to a sheep. This strangulating is a biting and holding on to the Sheep's throat, which stops it in its tracks and is just for that purpose. No blood is let, yet the dogs grip is strong enough to stop the sheep from any consideration other than stopping. Thus, we understand that the 5 of disks is so named because it stops all material events, such as profession, relationships or monetary gain, dead in its tracks.

​The term "worry" originates from the Old English word "wyrgan," which meant "to strangle". This verb evolved into Middle English as "worien," retaining the sense of "to seize by the throat and tear"—a behavior commonly associated with predators attacking their prey. Over time, this physical action led to a more figurative meaning, describing the act of harassing or distressing someone, much like a predator persistently troubles its victim. ​Wiktionary+5Vocabulary.com+5Etymonline+5Wiktionary+2English Language & Usage Stack Exchange+2Cooljugator+2Etymonline

By the 19th century, "worry" had further transitioned to signify mental distress or anxiety. This shift reflects how the sensation of being mentally "strangled" or "harassed" parallels the original physical connotation of the word. ​Etymonline

Regarding the notion of "worrying sheep," this phrase pertains to the historical use of "worry" in the context of dogs attacking or harassing livestock. Farmers would describe dogs that chased, bit, or harassed sheep as "worrying" them, indicating a direct link to the term's original meaning of physical aggression leading to distress or harm. ​

In summary, the evolution of "worry" from a term describing a violent physical act to one denoting mental unease illustrates the dynamic nature of language and how words can develop more abstract meanings over time.​

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Again, Crowley shapes this card as an inverted pentagram, which implies difficulties. as the body's fear is overriding the Will. He also placed the geometric figures of the Hindu five Tattvas in the individual disks, each symbolizing an Alchemical element of Fire, Water, Air, Earth, and Spirit. In the Hindu system these are the underlying currents of matter. The 5 Tattvas are Earth, Water, Fire, Air and Ether (ether is the dark egg in the center). These are the same “elements” known to Western Hermetic metaphysical science & Chinese medicine. These 5 earthly tattvas are qualities in our senses and in the world.

As mentioned, Mercurial energy is opposed in Taurian earth, simply because earth has a natural tendency to be stationary while Mercury is a messenger of swift motion. Granted it takes a strong Mercury to influence and unbalance Taurus, but Geburah, the red 5th Sephiroth, is just that strength. In fact, instead of Severity, she is sometimes called Strength and causes instability in the 5 states of matter. This instability is vibrational, much like an earthquake, yet the 5 states of energy (Tattvas) have enough attraction necessary to hold together on the lower planes forestalling complete disruption. So, again, this is more like the dog holding the sheep at a standstill, a kind of intelligence applied to labor. The 5 of Disks therefore also implies intense strain with long moments of inaction.

You may have heard the statement, "It's all in your mind". Truth is, all is Mind, and you're All Mind, even the body is composed of individual intelligent single cells and the DNA molecule is an "intelligent molecule". It is what you think that shall pollute your body, not what you eat!

The 5 of Disks states that perspective makes our present state of being, and if our perspectives dwell in the past we are “up-side-down” ---we aren't living today; the body may be in the "now", but the activating principle of the mind is in "yesterdays".

This 5 of Disks card reminds us that in a state of worry we are presently inanimate, which is dead to action. We can change directions, be they physical, emotional, spiritual, or mental, only by acting and/or moving! You can't correct the direction of a parked vehicle so don't wait, begin with what you have even if your only action is to hold out your hand for assistance. Tomorrow and what-ifs are unimportant to motion as they only excuse inaction.

It's time to break worry patterns by actively pursuing changes in communication patterns, financial, health, and in relationships with the Taurus people in your life. Therefore, worry is seen as a type of mental lethargy where one is at a crossroads and must choose a direction to break the chains of the past that are easily broken by current activity. Live the now, you are not "a past person" you are an I AM Now person---an active and unique expression of Alive Energy-in-motion. Therefore, when the worry card shows up, it implies you're at a crossroads, and must choose a direction, and then move into action which is a worry- free zone, for as the old Zen axiom states, " one step begins a journey of a thousand miles!"

The Mystic Palette Tarot- 5 of Coins displays artwork of an elderly man examining a golden coin and a less esoteric and more exoteric meaning of traditional Tarot. There are many ways to view this card, for example, it might show someone who pays too much attention to physical wealth or a person who studies religious doctrine, as he is in a church setting. However, the man is showing a hard focus on the coin in front of him and seems to be ignoring the greater spiritual pattern of the 4 golden pentacles above him.

It could also mean that he is receiving something of value from a higher social status. Hence, a gift to someone of lower social status from someone of higher social status and not an exchange among equals. Such a gift, while usually welcomed by the recipient, also creates or reflects a gulf between the give and receiver.

Alternatively, he could be outside the church and refusing to knock on the door as he sees himself as an outcast (impoverished) and refuses to approach the door of the higher mind, which would welcome him if he would but knock. Therefore, mental blocks such as worry is also implied here.

There is also a subtle admonishment here to ignore pride and ask for help. Sometimes we struggle and feel like there is nothing to do but put one's head down and suffer through it. Look around and you will see there is shelter, warmth, and loved ones who are willing to help in some sense. You are not alone; others will help you weather this storm which is shown by the above warm pentacle windows in the Church window.

In Gematria, the number 5 holds several significant characteristics and meanings across various traditions, particularly within Jewish mysticism and the Western esoteric tradition.

Jewish Gematria

1. Letter and Numerical Value: The number 5 correspond to the Hebrew letter "ה" (Heh). Each letter in the Hebrew alphabet has a numerical value, and Heh is the fifth letter, representing the number 5.

2. Symbolism of Heh:

   • God's Grace: The letter Heh is often associated with divine grace and benevolence. In Kabbalistic/Qabalistic thought, it symbolizes the breath of God and creation.
   • Names of God: The Tetragrammaton (YHWH) contains two Hehs, emphasizing its importance in the divine name.

3. Pentateuch (Torah): The number 5 is significant as it corresponds to the five books of Moses (Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy), which form the Torah. These texts are foundational to Jewish religious tradition and law.

Western Esotericism

1. Pentagram: In Western esoteric traditions, the number 5 is often represented by the pentagram, a five-pointed star.

   • Microcosm: The pentagram is seen as a symbol of the microcosm, or human being, with each point representing a limb or the head.
   • Protection: It is also used as a protective symbol, representing the five elements (earth, water, fire, air, and spirit) and their harmony.

2. The Fifth Sephirah - Geburah:

   • Tree of Life: On the Kabbalistic/Qabalistic Tree of Life, the fifth sephirah is Geburah, which means strength or severity. It is associated with discipline, judgment, and the application of justice.
   • Mars: Geburah is connected to the planet Mars, symbolizing action, courage, and sometimes conflict.

Tarot Correspondences

1. The Hierophant: In the Tarot, the number 5 corresponds to the Major Arcana card The Hierophant. This card represents tradition, spiritual wisdom, and religious guidance.
2. Minor Arcana: In the Minor Arcana, the fives of each suit (Cups, Pentacles, Swords, and Wands) typically indicate challenges, changes, or disruptions, reflecting the transformative power of the number 5.

General Symbolism

1. Human Experience: The number 5 often symbolizes human life and experience. It is connected to the five senses, indicating perception and interaction with the material world.
2. Balance and Change: As a prime number, 5 represents independence and self-determination. It also symbolizes dynamic balance and adaptability, as it stands at the midpoint between 1 and 9, suggesting a pivotal point of transition.

In summary, the number 5 in Gematria and various esoteric traditions embodies themes of creation, divine grace, human experience, protection, discipline, and transformation. Its significance is multifaceted, reflecting both spiritual and material aspects of existence.

When Divination brings up the 5 of Disks/Coins, the querent is going through a period:

• Of rumination, anxiety, or concern...or both.
• Feeling left out of social events because of lack of money.
• Of challenges concerning insecurity, deprivation, and even exclusion. 
• Where the mind is focused on survival issues and thus stopping creativity dead in its tracks as a feeling of helplessness and inertia takes over.
• There is a foretelling of material trouble for the next 5 weeks or 5 months. 
• Of the next 5 weeks or 5 months, opportunities are presented to you for the release of worry about health, finances, relationships, productivity and to improve your communication skills.
• The past, let's say when you were five years old, is what produces worry.
• Of intending to avoid discomfort, and try to compare present day events, to past ones.
• Locked into past pain----does not help us live in the present and this card reminds us to forget the what-ifs of yesterday, or tomorrow and to be the I Am of now.

If ill defined by the surrounding cards, it implies:

• Failure.
• Collapse.
• Despair.
• Triumph of Matter over Spirit (survival mind fear overcoming will).

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